i'm darn pissed now. sumtings' wrong wif dis s2pid blog tingy. its pissssing mi. haf no idea wads wrong also. juz soo pissed. fcuk!! wanted ta blog ytd. bt urm i on da com, lie on bed, tok on fone n fell asleep. soo its too bad coz wen i wake up, its lyk evening. brother is occupyin dis tingy n i've gota study fer moi tests. yaaa. its da end of july finally. its an unlucky n misfortunate month, fer mi..!! al bad tingys cropped up. made mi so tored of life. its so damn sickening u see. -eekz** n wads more moi com is lyk suddenly turn soooo bloody hell slow. so fcukin laggy. s2pid com. yucks. saturday 2dae. went back sku. spoilt moi precious saturday. took awae moi swweetestt tym of moi week. hais. moi sleepin duration was cut awae by da dummy english n chemistry papers. sucks ta hell can. hais. moi expenses went upp again. hahas. good luck. ytd went ta harbourfront n guess waddd.. spent thirty plus alreadi. fcuk moiself. i'm gona fail moi papers 2dae so urm, tink shal book a place in another privatee ta retake o levels. i'm s2pid. i'm slow. i'm lazy. i'm old. -arrrrggghh** was supposed ta meett jo n guys fer marche but i'm lyk soo sleepy now. moi mind is lost fer words ta sae here. i'm dozin off on dis chair, tink i'd better offline now n urm.. continue moi sweetest hours of moi week. tym is running. lets not waste it. i needa catch up wif da fast pace others re takin.
_______ ** .[x . LALA`` PRINCESS . x]. is.meEee * -- ____ x___ _rOxy`dEvOteEe-**

hmm.. 2dae wasnt fine. was almost latee, luckily we were quick ta run into da sports hall after miss eunice lee n miss lau entered. miss lee was lykk soo fcuk can, she was lyk "u al re not allowed ta enter wad. go go." i was lyk wtf can. hu cares, juz rush in n seee. nuthin happened. hahas. bt crystal was late. i was alone da whole readin period. passed da small lil cake ta mama alreadi. da strawberry soo sickening can. keep droppin off. wadever. juz hope she lyk it. hahas. -happie bdae mama!!** i was lyk feelin so left out nowawdayss. juz feelin not rite. duno, dun care, dun bother. i hafta studyy n swallow books noww. tym is running out. da lessons were borin man. koh didnt cum fer da 2nd dae alreadi. it was lyk soo rare can. frm last year til now dis is da first tymm. tink sumtingy serious muz haf happend ta him. good luck. n urm soo mani tests cumin up. onli can catch sum breath 2dae b4 i start studyin again. saturday chemistry, english. monday chinese, amaths. al so suckss wan. mdm chua was sumhow lyk hinting our chinese wasnt as idealistic. -***shaggss! tinkin of takin it again. i haf to. evry single grade is essential, is important. i shal learn from jasmine; jia you!! hahas. slackin. i am doin al da tyms. shitt!! juz read sum bloggys out dere n i was lyk -wow** so mani ppl change their blog style n al hafta do wif pink. seems lyk moi favv has bcum so common. hais. wadever. hahas. friday 2moro. a short dae, PE day. yippiieee!! lessons fer 2moro not dat bad except da stayin back fer sciencee part. yuckss. waste of tym. gonna end here. wass soo damn sleepy. hafta go ta pack moi bagg n tour in moi lala landd.
- _.lala.princess.is.meeee*** __ ::

been daes since i blog. hahas. was busy. schedule was so filled wif tingys ta do n obviously they re al related ta studies. exams re near. i'm begginin ta feel da fear. startin ta panick n worry coz i've gots 101 millions tingys i duno, dun bother, dun understand n dun tink i wil noe. hais. hopefully i wil rmb evry single tingys i study now. i've got STM u see. hais. towards work n studies onli. i'm lyk soo damn poor in studies now. gotta buck up. tests n tests re following. continual assessments ta class tests, n prelims den finally o levels. tym is tight now, fcukin damn tight. i'm feelin kinda shytt now. guys => al re JERKASS. yaa u wil sae how much u lurve a gal wen u haven get her, wen u got her, juz take tingys fer granted n wen da gal is soo damn devoted n into u, u juz get rid of her, clean yur ass n walk awae wif another gal. cant u guys b much more responsible..? jerkss. n precisely i hope moi darlin gal is healingg frm da wounds da jerkass left her. he isnt worth it. he hasnt learn da lesson of "once bitten twice shy" n i foresee him comin back on his knees ta beg u ta go back ta him. shytt him loads. he suck k. one more tingy, guo bing chao damn handsome can. so mesmerized by him. a charming hunk. -wee-u-wee! i lurve him ta da bits can. oh gosh. how i wish he could gimme sum of his height. i wan ta grow taller. 10cm wil do n i shal b satisfied. hahas. k. mummy's rushing mi fer dinner. hahas. 2nites dishes al re yummmmy. n after dat i shal complete moi work n watch vcd if i get da tymm. meanwhile take care ppl. -muackss**

. x __[:: guo.bing.chao ::]____ darn +`C``U``T``E`+ x . **

feelin so unwell now. juz came back from town wif al da good-looking chums of mine. yuppie. kinda enjoyed moiself n did i mention da cab driver was damn suckyy. soo damn fcuk can. fcuk him. eeks. nvm. irks mi. wadever. aniwae, sooo sorrie i neglect u. hahas. didnt update coz lazyy u see. hahas. actuali got online but mi let moi brother use. fridayy was at home, slept da whole day awae den went bukit merah ta haf moi dinner wif mummyy. dats da end. saturday hang out wif jolean at town. wanted ta watch da connie and carla wan but end up never coz no tickets availablee. so sad. nvm. den went ta eat crystal jade la mian n xiao long bao. yuuuuuummmie. so cravin fer more now. soo nicey soo delicious can.. -grrr!!* i wan more. cravin. temptations re strong. wadever. had famous amos cookies also. sooo niceyy also. juz makes mi yearnin fer moreee of it. yummiee. i'm fat, gettin fatter. its a gurlie tingy u see. hahas. bought da olay mask alreadi. ppl try it. its reali refreshin n nice. leave yur skin smoother n whiter. its worth da price trust mi. hahas. n urm i missed moi simple life can. sooo sad. missed moi paris hilton. she's so damn hott n sexy. i lurve her body n leggss. n b4 i tok bout her da entire page i'll better stop. had great tym wif jasmine, jessie, bernice, jaswinder, salimah 2dae. kinda enjoy but i stil tink dat pastamania suck. duno y. marche better. hahas. saw daniel ehh. mani mani tyms. hahas. he so tall can. i wan da height. fcuk i'm so fcukin damn short. god could u grant mi a few more centimetres plss. maybe 10cm more wil do. hahahas. greedy mi. but plsssss. aniwae, its cassie's bdae. juz left her a friendster msg. heez. i sooo nicey rite. k i'm endin dis. gonna cook moi maggi mee wif fish, and squids. i'm fallin sick soon. ppl bless mi, lurve mi k. hahas. misssss mi. -muackss**

2dae juz suck can. haf got sumtingy else ta attend, sumtingy muchh more impt than attending da suckyy sku. hahas. i didnt enjoy it, bt at least it allows mi ta sleep a few hours more n ta mi its juz so satisfying. hahas. skip CME and i bet ppl muz b enjoyin it veri well uh. hahahas. CME by da most popular teacher. hahahahas. wadever. i've got over it. yeaaaah!! soo sad. argentina won u see. can imagine da scene wif bird's felicityy facee. hahas. raine muz b sooo jubiliated uh. i guess so. so sick of da tingys dat happened. its so sickeennnin can. but its impossible dat i turn back tymm n needless ta sae cry over spilt milk. moi whinings re done. no more turnin back. juz imply sum self-discipline n tink-of-da-consequences in moiselff. yippeeee. i'm growinn!! growin fatt man. shitttss. moi mouth nv stop munchin, nv stop biting. juz eat, eat, eat is wad i doo all dae. i'm dying, dying of fatss. gonna cut down da amount of food i consumee or else.. hahas. study!! muz study alreadi. kept encouragin moiself ta do sooo but.. hahas. slackkkkin!! mummy bought a new hp. its not da latest model but i tink its soo nicey n class can. juz look so fineee. flip phone. x430 i tink. not badd. i lyk da light outside. so niceyy. esp da pink colour. wheee-u-wee!! so sick of tuitionin. i hate it now. hais. i'm gonna depend on moiself now!! workin towardss moi goall. but aimless u see. crystal missesss mi loadss i tink. hahas. she's absent on tuesday, i'm not present on wednesday. hahahahs. da thought of sku juz makes mi sickk. yuckss.

didnt manage ta touch da com last nyte. brother was occupyin it fer his s2pid dummy games which seems so lameee. boredd- well was rather busy. busy sleepin n slackin. its lyk wad da hell. monday. bluess again. wen wil monday pink appear. hais. school is never changin. owaes so borin. 4got wad happened ytd alreadi. wad i could recall is mi went ta bugis fer moi chocolate waffle n some prayings den back ta moi homee straight. n da fcukin 51 made mi wait fer damn bloody hell longg can. fcuk it. wastee moi precious flyin tymm. waitin fer dat s2pidd bus ta appear under da heat of da scorchin, furiously burnin sunn. wad da fcuk!! reach hm at 5 plus if i aint wrong. took moi napp. its essential n have been a part of moi life. moi daily activitiess. woke up, had moi longg bath, moi yummie dinnerrr. mum cooked, taste yummyy. moi fav mushroomsss. went ta NTUC after dat, replenish stuffs. bought tidbits n sweetss fer sku. loads of tingys til da price was lyk near a hundred buckk n moi mummy was lyk goin OOOOhhhs over da long receipt. -laughss. lucky draw, spin da wheel. 4 tyms n one was gone coz "thank you for your support". da other tyms were benefictial. got 2 packets of not-so-nice-ta-eat chocolates n a can of seems-ta-be-rotten sardine fish. eeeks. wadever. tasted da chocolates in sku 2dae. wasnt dat bad coz ppl finish em. hahas. dark chocolate coatin orange sweet. cant sae it is gummy bcoz it is so hard. cant sae its sweet neither coz its too soft. da sweet inside juz taste suckyy. wadever. crystal wasnt here. life suckk can. da s2pid laksa durin reccess dirtied moi blouse wif sum orangee polka dotss. wad da hell again!! i flunked moi english oral. it was lyk i'm alreadii on da last step b4 heaven but i tripped n fell down ta hellll!! i hatee moiself n am goin ta train moiself ta sleep earli. no more black outss, no more empty minddss. muz b filled wif knowleddgeee u see. ate moi not-so-dinner lunch wif gurlss frm moi klas. da food taste better den wad i thought. not badd. life is gonna b back. worryin fer 2moro. fearin. wadever it might bee. bird wass lyk so arsenal-listic can. hahas. k i shal crawl up ta see whether i could watchh da match. hopefully daddy go out by den. a mathss - integration seems nicer den differentiation. hahas. yummm. 2moro is da daeeee man. enddd. muackss.

ytd didnt update coz mi was damn tiredd. slept fcukin earli can. about 11pm after watchin moi simple life of coz. paris hilton pweetiee pweetie. so damn pweetie. fcukin hott. drop dis issue. moi muscles achin so much can. so painful. its al over u c, from moi hands, palm, albow, shoulder to legs. feelin so shitty can. sumore sun burn u noe. *oouccch!!* terribly unbearable. grrrr. i should stop moi whining n groaning. hahas. aniwae, TORPEDO done rather well. really. its not dat we won, we lost in fact. al 4 matches but didnt get trashed by opponents. fcukin loads of ppl can. we tried our best wif no profession training. urm actuali dere is.. justin taught a lil n without ani experience or playings we went. here we go. hahas. didnt manage ta win trophy but urm da s2pid liar goodie bag which is reali sooo bluff can. its stated on da competition paper dat goodie bag will be given after da match. wad kinda bull shit is dis. they re al given at da start can. da jersey n a voucher which is onli applicable wif minimum purchase of $50 n above. wad kinda fcukin dog shit is dis. so furious after i knew it can. grrr!! bt nvm, kinda enjoy moiself. realli. sorrie ta moi team, moi appearance was actualli not needed. i was sumhow lyk a statue touchin no ball u see. fcuk. i no strength, no energy, no experience n no stamina. fcuk mi. i suck can. nvm. aniwae, u guys did well. realli. lurve u al. muackss. last year's jersey was nicer. realli. haiss. jasmine came wif us earli in da morning. she lyk our team manager lyk dat. den urm, jo, ming n siew fen camee. followed by crystal n kuok kei. hahas. it was fun. sooo mani ppl u see. bummed into others dere. da weather was fine. real fine enuff ta play. da last game, da 4th wan suck. wif everyone tired n hopeless, leisher was furious. sowrie. i felt so useless can. k whatever. we left after our last game, waited damn longg fer a bath. its lyk wtf, evryone's face was sulky. we gurls take a lifetym ta bath u see. waited fer sooo damn long, sumore i was lyk da last ta bath can. went ta harbourfront hawker eat. nicey nicey. yummmieeee. den went ta town wif jolean fer a while. we al went out own wayss den. had a pretty serious tiff wif her. over small lil tingy. its' silly but she suck. nvmm. 2dae, organ at 1pm. after sleepin fer about 12 hours, it wass reali refreshing man, at da same tym i stil felt so tired. moi bedd, i dun bear ta leave it. hais. bath, ate n left house. mummie finalli agrreed ta sponsor sum money fer da bikini but i suddenly changed moi mind. dun wan it alreadi. bought a roxyy top instead. fer her, as well as fer mi. we share clothes u see. of coz dose t shirt onli, call mi wear al dose aunties clothin. NO WAY can. hahas. moi mum's trendy lah, she wears ripcurl, stussy n roxy u see. evrytym take moi clothes wear wan. -_-"' never mind. hahas. she's moi great mother u see. moi roxy bikini.. stil can delay. suddenli not reali yearnin ta haf alreadi. rottin at hm after dat. haben eat dinner. stomachs screamin. hahas. i hafta go grab a bitteee. anitingy is finee fer dis momentt. hahas. yummmmieee.

i'm too tired to typee. juz came back frm volleyball lessons frm justin. he's so professional n niceyy can. urm i oughta thank him so much man. thankss millionss million man!! he is lyk so damn patient wif moi stupidityy. hais. nvm. 4get it. moi hand. wordless can describe can. ouch ouch ouchhh!! it hurts can. volleyball is not reali dat fun actually. its painnnful n tough. mere torture can!! yaa, afternoon anyhow helped buckley play da floorball. thou' didnt win but its a nicey try. gd gamee. nt bad. buckley against young house u see. damn competitive wif al da rough rough players dere. da high possibilities of gettin injured u noe. damn scaryy. nvm. da score 1-0. onli a goal. nvm. hahas. consolin moiself. not a bad try aniwae. exxciting. i screwd moi prelims oral up completely. it was lyk i freaked out wen facin da teachers. u seee they re our own sku teacherss n yet i stil cant tok. i'm trembling n in a state when moi mind cant tink or intepret any singlee tingyy u seee. i need da teacher ta hint mi evry now n den. i felt soo depressed u noe. da feeling of dejection juz keeps on haunting mi. its over. no use cryin over spilt milk u see. da cows haf gone home long ago. i shal b sleepin now. 2moro exciting daee. sentosa sunset bay volleyball competition, da one i've been waitin n counting down fer. its now onli hours away n i'm lyk leftt wif onli 6 hours of sleep. i needa go ta bedd. ppl, dun misss mi. hahas. hope moi team wun get trashed dat badly. lets enjoyy dudes. nytess.

7th monthiversary 2dae. wasnt as happie bt stil alrite. was a damn tedious n tiring day. i'm fcukin tired now. wil doze off soon man. its lyk near 12 alreadi. over soon. ytd didnt post ani blog. wasnt able ta touch dis com. lil brother was usin it. moi schedule was prettie tight too. ytd stayed back in sku aft assembly fer da accounts file. i am terrible can. al corrections not done. heez. den urmm happened ta find out from jo dat derick wong wana teach us volleyball. good tingy is dat he is teachin. bad news: leisher gone fer polo, huiyi went off alreadi. leavin victor wif mi. it was tough man. gosshhh!! cant play. i am weaak can. painful, damn painfull can. da s2pid ball. wonderin how i wil disgrace moiself on saturday. but i'm prettie lookin forward to it thou'. da person in charge called while i'm havin moi tuition. yeapp. he said juz go dere n enjoy, join in da fun n dats al. its alrite wif da skills. hahas. aft tuition had moi dinner n homeworkk. tired tired tired. slept at 1am plus last nyte. *yawnss* da day was longgg 2dae. tym was again, passin dreadfully slow. da lessons.. omg!! first 2 periods is da sucky sucky a mathss. den after sku, accounts remediall. stayed back ta complete moi file again. finalli donee. =) happie can. made mi develop sudden phobia towards numerical figures. shaggs. hahas. jo was outside wif nemo, nevil, cindy n fie. went queensway shoppin centre coz jo wan buy sneakers fer skuu. wadever. it was juz wasting, mere wastin of tymm coz walked arnd searchin fer nuthin. hahas. aniwae, it was good dat at least she got herself a pair of shoes or else.. da whole trip will b so lyk wasted can n its lyk so much tym spent. eeks. tym is runnin sooo out can. no tym, indufficient tym, short period of tym ta prepare for 'o's but i'm stil lyk so slackk. dieee. mr koh tok to mi. da topic, i'm reticent ta mention. yupp. shitt. aniwae, juz saw da disc jo passed ta mi. it was soo touchin can. ohh man n moi dearr if u re readin dis.. thankss a million, it is reali nicey. i'm sorrie too k. muackss. lurve u lurve u lurve u. thankeww. hahas. tired now. moi eye lids re lyk fallin down. wadever. ppl, shal end here. i'm havin moi prelims english oral 2moro. wish mi good luck okies. bless mi. hahas. i'm endin. dere's b hell loads of programmes for 2moro. another busy dayy. saturday too, sure wil b dead beat. tireddd, real tireness. its killin mi. nytess peep, i'm goin ta moi lala land. lala princessss is mi. hahas. i'm sum wad bonkerin. muacks. ta moi dearestt, happie 7th monthiversaryy.

::. listenin.to : F.I.R - ni de wei xiao .::

tuesdays re much nicer den mondays. hahas. finalli get da chance ta walk up da slope after lyk so long of cabbbies. gonna start climbin hills earli in da mornin. its quite fun too, esp wen u re wif ppl hu chatss n entertain. fun fun fun. k wasnt late, was considered earli can. yaaa, felt so proud coz i finish moi accountss. yeaaah but now on moi own, wif aid frm cheeheng lah. he's a nicey gentleman can, so carin. but wadever, i dun care. urm chatted wif ppl in da mornin. volleyball com. wada hell!! its drawin near n i'm lykk gonna disgrace moiself dis saturday. good luck good luck. better not b dat ugly k. hahas. found out frm helena dat alot pross joinin. tink i'm reali deaad, shitty dead. its so lyk fcukin deadddd. sigh. juz go dere haf fun n runnn.. flee as far as i can. hahas. nuthin reali happened. lessons were as usual, horrendous bore!! esp da a maths, i suddenli lost al moi interest for it. it saddens mi u see. wada fcukin shit. damnn da s2pid teacher. i hate u! after sku remedials, english compre ta b completed. shitt him also. 2moro open book history test on mao. dumb china. s2pid governments. they tink its fun 2 create such a humiliated history. fcuk em. went ta town wif jasmine. ta see bikini lor. arrrggh, 4got which other wan i lyk but nvm, stil haf a choice ta choose b4 its gone gone gone. i'm beginnin ta fear dat moi mum gets contradiccting. fcuk. i'll b pissed, damn pissed if she reali did dat. da mint ice cream damn niceyy. da pictures damnn nicey. jasmine rite?? she so damn fcukin excited. wada hell. k u'll b readin n hmm, next moment u'll go " bitchhh.. " hahas. i'll stop bout u. F.I.R songs nicey. thumbss riseddd. weeEeeeee. music great, accompaniments fantastic, voice powerful. sounds so perfect uh. yaa. go listen plss. hahas. strongly encourage. i'm so glad coz i've got a few more sweetie pies in moi list. muackss. thanks ppl. n heyy juz came back from ntuc wif mummy n aunty. yaa style magazine featurin cindy. mummy says her smile is nicey. =)) hmmmm. go grab a copy n see k. shal end here. ppl re startin their revision n is lyk i'm stil slackin here. cant u see. its a word wif four alphabets for mi man.. n here it goess. [.D.E.A.D.]

::. listenin.ta : the resmus - in the shadow .::

hmm. was so furiouss. juz now created a posting alreadyy at jo's house but it was rejected man. her com juz got so freak out can. shit it. hahas. wadever. gonna start al over again. wells, monday. its blue. yaa wif al da blueess n mi da only pinkk. yipee. nuthins gd, nuthins nicey. first period already got stay back by da s2pid chemistry teacher fer an hour juz bcoz i cant answer a qn. soo dumb as it seems, it is. hahas. wadever, den e maths, accounts.. RECCESSS. didnt went fer it, remained in klas ta crap. hahas. den englishh followed by a mathss *eeeks* den urm lastly chinesee *yawnss*. da lessons simply suck uh. hahas. a maths, i gave up coz i'm so freakin tired wif da freakin borin teacher. i duno, her lessons, i hate em. so sucky, so dreadfully long, so sleepy, so yuckkkyy. urm. lets see.. if i can manage it at home den i shal take it if i cant, den urm i'll stil try. hahas. wadever. i'm dead. "o" levels re drawin near. shit shit shitty man. stayed back an hour fer moi lunch, it was meant for self revision on chemistry but ateee. n dat jasmine got so freakin excited over da bikini tingy. hope u re readin dis bitch. hahas. k F.I.R songyss nicey. got em, heard em, enjoyed em. guo biing chao soo handsomee can. yyyyeeeeaaa. n wads da issue i was mentionin dis afternoon in moi rejected blog.. yaaa. paris hilton, she's so damn fcukin perfect. toooo perfect ta b true. her bodddyy.. oooh hot, H.O.T, HOT.. so sexayeee. i wan!! but dream on uh. wel her features re nicey but cumin ta da combination part, doesnt seems dat reali nicey. wadever. she looks so nicey in evrytingyss can. in al types of dressings, from miniisss ta jeans, bikiniss ta revealin clothess. she's god damn gorgeouss. sumore al da qualitiess re implied in her can. so damn fcukin lucky. lucky lucky lucky. she's rich, pretty, elegant, seems carin n niceyy, urm nice bodyy, nice figure, nice leggyss, niceey assss. oops. wadever. juz so fcukin lurve her bodddyyy. if she were ta b sentosa be it sunset bay or palawan beach, al da guys wil drrooool man. al da eyes wil be laid on herr man. gorgeous, beauty, pweeetttyy. she is da genuine babe man. da genuine beauty. da genuine model. da genuine nicey figured woman. perfectttt. i wan it tooooOooo. bOOoOOOoOO!! too bad. fate. its lyk dat. k its late. gonna hitt moi pinkyy nest. weeehHeeEe. i'm lurvin it. n raineee.. thankss k. so nicey. hais. duno how ta repay u mann. muackss. treat u cadbury one day. sounds stingyy. hahas. letss seee.

::. listenin to : cassidy feat kelly - hotel .::

hmm. organ at 1pm. i woke up at bout 11.15am 2dae. quite earli. not bad not bad. hahas. k took bus ta organ. listenin ta moi mp3 songyss. nicey nicey. urm. wasnt late 2day. was such a miraculous tingy. k den 2dae was moi turn for da pieces. complete alreadi. yaa. happie. b flat major 2dae. she duno go thru dis chord how mani tyms alreadi. next week gonna do it again. so damn sick of it can!! k wadever. mummy n brother was at ps. went bugis ta pray coz i was down in luck. misfortuness happenin ta mi. sighs. haiss. k evrytingys gonna b fine. stayin strong wif moi broken wings k. hahas. i wil stand up once again u see. moi future. i'm seein, its unclear but i'm gonna make it clear soon. went ta bugis ta search fer a shoe moi brother lyk. cant find one obviously. which explains y we took cabby ta queensway shoppin centre. moi feet so damn smal. so damn gdd coz can fit it ta most of da shoes moi brother wan. haahas. evil luffs. he needs far more bigger size. too bad. bOooOo!! no gain 2dae but i'm gonna get moi bikini by dis week. we shal seeee. weeeeeEee!!

urm. saturday, tenth of seven. nuthin much happened. went to collect moi mp3 player readi. its free so i dun ask for much. not dat awful lookin oso. not bad not bad. hahas. so happie. aniwae was wif moi mummyy, went ta meet moi aunties at united square. sherwin so lovable. so cute. so lurve him can. urrmm. i wan a child but i dun wana gif birth. pain pain pain u noe. its a tedious task. nah nah. went ta noodle hut eat. hmm. not nicey. not nicey. i prefer crystal jade. thumbs up up. yumm. i'm hungry again. yaa pianist kelvin kern was dere. he damn pro. played al da songs so nice. his improvisation damnn gd can. yaa he is sum1 i wana b. dreamin now. yaa. i'm goin ta start playin moi organ alreadi. i wana b lyk him. can play so well. i've been slackin lyk for how 5 years alreadi. totalli lyk nv touch organ. muz practisee practise alreadi. k den went back alreadi. whole day was at hm. nv go out. plannin ta do sum revision. but i doubt i'll do so. i lurvee moi mp3 player. muackss.

fridae. loads of tingys ta b done n handed up todae. JO was absent but we haf got work ta do. he wun let us off so easy. that's him. nuthin much reali happened 2day. da chem retest was urm an easy job. she gave exactly da mid year paper n she wasnt around while we re doin it. needless ta say, i couldnt care less bout moi own integrity but to discuss da answers together. in other words, copy. bernice damn nicey can. she so smart lah. as compared to mi, a heaven n hell n obviously i'm da hell. k wadever. 2.4km run for PE. it was tedious, tiring. i puked immediately after dat but dis year i didnt cheat on da results. hahas. its slow but i'm satisfied. kinda proud of moiself but dere's nuthin ta b proud of also. i'm juz lame. da images re stil hauntin mi whenever i close moi eyes. i felt so sick of it. feel sick, feelin sick, felt sick. hais. y cant we turn back tym. y cant dere b a chance ta get rid of al our regrets. shitty. so shitty i'm feelin. left sku at bout 4pm. reach hm near 5pm den went ta haf a nap b4 tuition at 7.15pm supposely but she was late. yuppie. as usual, i lost interest again. i cldnt concentrate. i tried al ways, by al means alreadi but moi mind is juz not dere. its in sumwhere else i duno. its a tiring dae. i'm feelin kinda restless now. cant move. muscles re achin terribly. its horrible u noe. muscles cramp. hais. no more late nytes for mi for da moment, hafta b an obedient mummy's lil gal ta stay out of trouble. she's naggy. she's fierce. but she's nice. she's sweet. i lurve her thou' i hate her too. but lurvee is owaes more, much much more. muackss. she forgave mi. i shal learn moi lesson. 2moro, a family day, goin out wif aunties n mummy. den dinner at grandma's house. no more frens, buddies. perhaps on sunday but i doubt they can make it. nvm. juz stay as obedient as i could. i wana b a good gurl. i am one. moi mood recovered for at least a bit. urm i wasnt dat cold anymore. yuppie. started to speak up. urm. i lurvee crystal. i lurve jasmine. muackss. n not forgettin jaswinder n salimah,, cheeheng n danny.. yaya. thanks for al yur concern. i'm lame again. stupified. wadever. i'm tired. painful painful painful. to javelynn : "i wan yur blog!!" zzZzzzzz.. hopin dat evrytingys wil turn out fine for mi. rainee. thanks for al. u guys make up moi perfect-lookin chums. ((:

::. listenin to : gareth gates - stupid mistake .::

i feel so much lyk laughin at moiself, mockin at moiself as well as crying to moiself. its da eighth of seven. i should haf left for home ytd. i "should have", "if only" re da words i could use. da expressions to regrets. i've never felt so pain in moi heart b4. since he has left, life seems so foolish to mi. foolish tingys, many many i have done. dumb actions, loads loads i hate to sae. i dun blame him. he hurt mi. i shal hate him. but wad for? its da path i take, da choices i make. its al bout mi. i'm tinkin of loads of tingys. mani mani tingys re rotatin in moi mind. i haf committed too mani sins, too mani crimes i consider. i'm feelin guilty. stil regretin. i'm stil feelin sorrie. i'm such a let down. its juz a moment of foolishness. its not worth da price. y is da temptation so heavy n strong at da moment. its reali a lesson dat i have to learn, a fact dat i haf to accept. tingys haf changed, da aspects of ppl towards mi, da way they wil tink of mi, da different stares i wil get from them. i hated them. but i shal b strong n live on. to prove to mani mani dat i can make it thru dis heavy rain, i can stand up once again, on moi own, n i noe dat i'm strong enuff to face. i have to be strong n start a veri fresh anew on moi own. tym is passin, i'm wastin moi tym. ruinin moi life. da whole day was down, wif all da fear n pains terrorisin mi. da images re stil dere, clear in moi mind. evry faces, each moment, moi feelings, moi heart, da heavy breath, da strong heart-thumping moments, n da mockin of sum, da pointin n criticisin by mani. i felt so pissed, so irritated, so pain, even more pain, so hurt, so disappointed, so regret, so sadd, so so soo.. da feelin is strong. i hope it fades. i hope i could simply clear moi mind. i'm lost. its dumb i noe. its veri dumb. i've saw n knew al tingys but y am i repeatin it. it has happened b4. its juz mischief. i'm so sucky. i'm feeelin da pain in moi heart. its da whole day of pain, tiredness n sadness. disappointment. moodless reali not as happie as b4, i cant be. wad i can do nw, hope evrytingys turn out fine. nuthin turns wrong. i'm wishin, hopin n prayin hard. i'm sorrie. da mistake. i wil bear it in mind even i'm not alive. its hard to 4get, tough to not tink about it. its worse, worser den anitingy else. da pain, its da most painful pain i feel. i feel so sucky. i sucks. mummy, i'm sorry. aunties, i'm sorry. n to moi dearest daddy dat has been kept in da dark, if ever u find out bout it one day, i'm deeply sorry. i'm a useless let down. n to moi brother whom haf trusted mi so much, believed in mi thou' i'm reali wrong, thankeww n sorrie also. dun do dis, i'll ripped off yuuur skin n whack yur ass. to huiyi n jolean, i'm sorry also. i've forgotten al da morals thought. luff at mi if u should. i've lost moi confidence. facin da mirror, i'm lookin at a ugly, useless n sucky facee. i juz felt so suck.

::. listenin.to : big brovas - baby boy .::

urm. it was bad. tingyss were bad for mi on seventh of seventh. it was unforgettable n a bitter lesson taught. it was painful, lyk a deep pierce thru' moi own heart. it was a moment, a quick short moment that has cause a life tym of u see. its not worth it but its useless to cry over spilt milk. completely useless. regret, thou' i should not be doin nw, regret, regretting, regreted. spent da entire seventh of seventh in sumwhere i noe i shouldnt be in, but cant get out of dere. i felt so pissed with moiself for causin moiself there. its juz a lil mistake, a stupid mistake. stupidity its al due to moi moment of foolishness. i felt so bad. i hated moiself. i despise moiself. i looked down on moiself. wad has exactly caused such a huge n big change in me. i have broke da hearts of many n have let em down. i'm sorrie to u people. i noe i have caused really mani problems since i stepped into sec sku. its lyk a 360 degree change. i wish i could turn back tym but it was impossible n even if it is, i might make da mistake again. moi mind, juz exactly how is it workin? i need to noe, i need to find out. i need to start plannin for moi very own future. cant depend on anyone animore. lifes' gonna be tough, tougher. i suddenly felt so down. i'm such a let down. shit mi, damn mi, ruin me, kill mi, murder mi, fuck mi, blooody mi, assy mi. i am da shittiest person. i hate moiself. hate, hating, hated. i'm tryin to keep da sadness in moiself. i dun wish to tink bout da tingy but it keeps haunting mi, terrorising mi. its a big mistake, a foolish moment n a stupid action. i'm sorry. n to moi dearest huiyi n jolean, i'm sorrie i didnt play moi part as a good friend. its hard to face da truth at al tyms but since we have to, we'll do it together. i wan moi future bright but i felt so de-moralised now. tingys re gonna be bad. lets get it straight. i suck.

urm. youth day over. sku again. eeks. sucks k. cant crawl out of moi darlin warm nest dis mornin. was lyk lyin dere so motionlessly. youth day. urm went kbox n it was lyk fcukin expensive can. i'm livin moi life too extravagant already. needa change. spend loads loads of money. have to save money alreadi. motivatin moiself. but urm. hahas. i juz spent moi money on moi new water bottle. hahas. its blue. too bad no pink lah. actuali i prefer da blackie wan but they tink blue wan nicer n aft much hesitation, i chose da blue wan. hahas. not dat bad lookin but hopefully da s2pid flash n splash dun let mi see a pink bottle next week. i'll burn da shops n outlets. trust mi! its not da first or second tym. it's been tyms when i juz purchased one n da next week i saw a pink wan. its lyk so fcukin pissed wan. but if ever dis happens again, i would buy da pink wan. hahas. crazi. money again. spendin money again. i juz feel so sickening of moiself. hahas. imagine mi havin not a single penny one day. urm i would dieee. hahas. wadeva. ytd enjoyed but money cums in again. it costs us a BOMB!! ex ex expensive man but i enjoyed lah. thou' not dat much but stil urm get to do sumtingy i lurve. we did take a pic at there. mayb when i'm free i shal upload or when i learn how to. hahas. k today. KYP is da perfect sucker or perhaps worse than dat. damn blooody hell bias. so sucky. so yucky. so eeeeeeeeky. refused to let us go for reccess. i shal sue him. hahas. no. i wil get a complain. hahas. its possible can. da government did mention b4 dat teachers re not allowed to take away student's reccess. n urm KYP u watch out. hahas. i sound so evil. hahas. bt to dis type of person, evilness is da onli way. cruel also. hahas. wadeva. JO also another wan. wait til da rain start to pour den he allows us to go. i was drenched lyk a wet chicken. n moi hairrr. dearest darlin hairrrr. so poor tingy. hahas. went flash n splash city link branch. onli purchased da water bottle den went home already. n fcukin friendster. i cant go in to da page. so sucky. so lag. yuckss. pissin mi off. woohoo!!~ 2moro moi chinese oral. teach mi. bless mi. coach mi. wish mi. lurve mi. anitingy positive except cursin mi or u shal stay unlucky al yur lifeee. hahas. cheeerioss. al da best to miii.

its a sunday. organ resumes today at 1pm. studio 127, never changing wan. hais. woke up at near 12pm n it was lyk suppose to b 11am. well, i'm a long-houred pigg sleep-er u see. hahas. sleepin moi darlin passion. enjoyyy it so much, no reasons ta explain. jo wasnt able to meet mi straight after moi organ klas coz she's havin tuition at 3pm which is lyk so wrong in tym. so urm nemo came ta accompany mi. she's juz so sweet. lurve her. muackss. went ta eat da 'sour' tako balls. hahas. den went hmv, flash n splash den expected, NEOS again. hahas. nice wan. was not dat bad bt not denyin da fact dat i look retarded in it. but nemo was da more retarded wan. 2 retardss. went paragon ta check out da roxy bikini n i laid moi eyes on 2 nicey wan in moi opinion. gonna start ta save to buy them. but firstly clear moi debts first, quiksilver volleyball ppl stil haben pay mi moi money. n urm hahas. i'm gonna get them to pay. den move on to moi weekly allowance. not gonna spend them for moi dearest bikini. roxy bikini. was so charmingly beautiful til i'm stil tinkin bout it now. hahas. i'm gonna buy it get it steal it have it for suree. hees. bought a 2 flavoured ice cream. taste exquisite. yummiess. mint chip n cookies n cream. moi favv. jo came. they ate tako pachi. den went LV shop coz mi hafta get sumtingy done dere. everytingy inside was lyk so nicey. so costly. hahas. got da receipt n it was lyk so nice n high-klas compared to outside wan. hahas. wadeva. i sound lyk a mountain turtle but i aint one of course. hahas. den urm took another neo den stroll round dere. n NEMO LIEW HUIYI. u committed so mani crimes 2day. better clear yur sins. hahas. its fun hanging out wif u stupid fishy creature. hahas. aniwae soccer start alreadi. gotta catch moi cutie cutie cutie. cristiano ronaldo. muackss. portugal wil win..

i'm lazy. hahas. didnt update for ytd lah. slackin. aniwae da chinese listenin was pretty fine but i aint confident. hahas. tingys owaes turn out da way i dun wan it to. so i tink i shal not inject myself wif da confidence i need. cum wad may. life's lyk dat. wad to expect? shit, shits n more of shitss. urm. went to haf mac breakfast after da tym-consumin listenin which started at 9am but gues wad? i reached sku at 7.35am coz dats wad da teacher instructed. its juz bull shit. waited n waited. i was so darn tired. hais. bt haaf ta keep myself awake coz dis is so damn impt can. was lyk wastin moi tym runnin here n dere, crappin, crappin.. hotcakes. moi breakfast. i'm proud of myself coz i finally could finish da 3 pieces of hotcakes. hahas. i aint exaggeratin k. i reali cant finish it wan. bought breakfast for jolean. went her house n gave her. was lyk so restless den. she ate while i used her com. i felt much more relieved now but da stress wil return near wednesday. i'm havin moi oral. bless mi. went hm at mid noon. took a nap. it was so niceyy n i was reali tired til moi mind went into dreams immediately after i shut em. hahas. woke up it was near evenin. took moi half-hour long bath n went over grandmother's house for dinner. it was sat n i was suppose to go over there. aunt was dere. al commented on moi hair. hahas. at least da comments arent awful. sweet oness uh. hahas. meet up wif jo. went town. daniel was in town. didnt get a chance to see him guess it was fated. hahas. too bad den. urm took neos again. i enjoy takin picss. i looked perfectly dumb. i'm so dumb-lookin now. hahas. aniwae met up wif nevil, 2gether wif his darlin wendy n her "fren" who looks absolute alienic to mi can. her dressing style juz suck. k. i shal not sae further or else da whole entire tingy wil b bout her. hahas. its not sumtingy pleasant k so its better to be unknown. after wastin tym strollin here n dere, went cine long john eat, they not mi. den home. was tired. read an article in seventeen mag. it was so fabulously written. i admired da way da author wrote it. can u imagine. she's da same age as mi but da quality of work is totali a heaven n hell. i need to buck up. for da dearest sake of my far-away AIM. hahas. peace..

:: listenin to : jolin tsai - dao dai ::

k. ytd wasnt able ta update coz moi brother was usin dis com lyk nobody's business. well i'm dead beat too. so restless n tired. hahas. cut moi hair. looks weird. hais. filled wif regrets bt urm its juz hair. it wil grow back k. its lyk so nerdy. but dats wad i wana be total [n.e.r.d]. hahas. urm looks absolutely lyk a kiddy bt i aint 1 k. urm no more mature mature. looks kidd kiddy kiddo man. urm lyk so childish bt as i've said wil grow back. lets see how fast. lets wait n see. but urm i quite lyk it. its a new look i obtain moiself. it wasnt dat bad thou'. yuppie. slowly lah. hahas. take tym to accept it k. n urm while whining bout moi short shortie hair. i'm also feelin moi heart thumpin hard. its onli lyk a number of hours to moi o level chinese LC n urm days to moi oral exam. hahas. k dudes n guys n all sweetiess. best of luck k. may al b blessed wif satisfyin results k. urm lets work hard together ppl. hahas. lost for words to sae alreadi. its al bout hair. its al bout moi hair. its al bout moi stupid lookin hair. its al bout moi stupid lookin shortie shortie hair. n urm jolin's song is nicey. thumbs up!!~ muackss. i'm feelin so shag. SHAGSS. n dun get da wrong idea for dose dirtiess. hahas. blessins n loads of lurvess..