wow. its been days since i updatedd here uh. hahas. ma com re not in terms wif mi u see. dis s2pid dummy computer have been givin mi troubles fer da past numeral days. it suck lyk hell. k. ive spent ma tym enjoyably fer da past consecutive days. it simply rawks man. yuppie. 260804` its ma jolean darlin's bdae. yuppie. thou sku was longg on thurs, i managed ta rush home n meet her on tymm at bugis. it was juz a 'too-simple' celebration coz we aint got tym ta reali sit down n plan fer it u see. took pictures den went ta mos burger fer dinner as well as ta cut da pink tasmania cake. it was soo niceyy. pink rawkss yeah. hahas. 270804` oh ma god. it was marked as one of da most wonderful day of dis year. sammi concert!! met aunt n was late fer da concert. it was fortunate fer us dat da entire tingy was delayedd. she is fabulously great. her voice is lyk soo strong n powerful. she sings, sang extremely well can. i simply lurve her mann. da concert was awesomee. sammi lurves kitty can. hahahahas. she's so cute, so slim, so ideal, sooo .. beyond words. k. i enjoyed maself ta bits. stayed over at aunt's house fer da nyte. sherwin was asleep wen i reached there. 280804` hit ma cosy snug earli, i consider. at bout 11 plus, which i would stil b in ma sweet sugar dreams fer a saturday. i nod off straight da moment i reach home. woke up at bout 4 n started ta prepare ta goo out again. hahas. ma life, full of fun uh. took a ride on uncle's new lorry ta ps. met up wif ma classmates fer da lamee movie 'fa-ce'. hahas. we ended up catchin da show at marina. da show, nuthin special, nuthin great, nuthin reali spooky except da sound effects. it was dumb overall. da ppl watchin wif mi were sumhow dumb too. i'm referrin ta da guys. "ghost, ghost!!" hahahhahas. ridiculously dumb. waas sumhow laughin throughout da 90 minutes. lame lame lame. as fer sunday, nuthin special. organ den went home ta complete ma work. had enuff fun alreadi. tym ta get started again. i flunkk ma chemistry test again. screwd up. enjoyed maself til i almost 4got bout it completely. 300804` on monday, i'm waiting. waiting fer da last bell of da day ta end. went ta marche fer ma hotdog mann. da temptation, too strong taa resist man. frittled ma tym awae. that's all. 2moro, rot dayy man. damn!!~

oh gosh. ive wasted 2 hours on dis com again. been encouragin maself ta study, al da motivations failed mann. feelin so shitty. ma life suck man, onli fer dis s2pid critical moment wen da scariest exams re near n i'm lyk didnt prepare anythingy at all. hahas. wadever. 2dae was long. shyt jo fer da s2pid compre summary. i am so deadd can. dun seem ta haf da ability ta complete da english compre on tym. if dat's wad gonna happen on ma actual o levels, i am dead. commit suicide perhaps. hahahas. crazi. reali hafta buck up. shyt u mann. nuthing much happened, except dat i finally took a mercedes cab, in which i consider a limousine ta sku. hahas. i juz had ma dinner n ma nap was rechargin mann. reali enjoyed ma long nap after 4 nytes of insufficient sleep. niceeey. no dreams but da sleep was sound n peaceful. -smilees** juz updated ma upcumin events, which pretty much infuriated mi coz i seem ta press da wrong button whenever i wana save da changes n da whole tingy is gonee. hahas. its until da 3rd tym dat i succeed. hahahhaas. dats al i hafta sae on dis tiring tuesday. -kisses*

didnt blog last nyte coz i was soo held up wif ma accounts hmwk can. a complete set of paper which i didnt reali finish all da qns but at da veri least, put in ma utmost effort n tried ma best. its lyk stil so much of unknowns in ma work. i'm dead mann. goshh. watched catwoman last nyte also. which was one of da reasons why i couldnt finish ma work til 3am. hahahahas. was lyk so lethargic wen it cums ta workin on books. shytt em mann. catwoman is nicey man. catwoman is hot. meoww². i would recommend dis show but evry one has got different taste uh. so urm go catch it but dun blame mi if u tink its not up ta yur standard k. hahas. had organ ytd, met up wif jo after dat n as usual, she was late. i let ma tym frittled awae swiftly ytd n now its lyk no difference. went ta tiong bahru 2dae after ma chemistry short remedial. i'm lyk soo fatigued throughout da lessons mann. all i wanted was a nicee sleep mann, with or without sweet dreams, it doesnt matter. as long as i can sleep peacefully n soundly throughout da nyte wihout fears n worries. ma life, its so ruined by da s2pid idiotic o levels n i damn da person hu invented dis so-DUMB examinations. its so lame. onli pressurised old kids lyk us mann. damnn u man. got back most of da test results. surprisingly, i got a border-line pass fer ma e maths which i was almost shocked ta death, n filled wif extreme tremendous joyy. wadever. ma chemistry n accounts were alrite. glad k. satisfied but da qns re soo far away as compared ta o levels. i'm not up ta da o levels standard. i hope dere's a place fer mi next year if i reali haf a strong need ta retake. hahas. wadever. i'm gonna study hard. n words re owaes louder than ma actions. i sound lyk a failure mann. shyt mi. i'm gonna take a short nap at dis ridiculous hour. gonna stay awake ta complete loads of work. i would b too wear out b4 midnyte later. hahas. its mi.

its a homely saturday fer mi mann. didnt go out lyk i would doo can. was lyk soo slackin at home n grandma's house. da physics test was over n that bids farewell ta ma ca which is sumtingy soo absurdly great can. hahas. k its not dat wonderful actually coz it also means that prelims re sooo near. wee. dead. hit ma sweet lil cosyy nest at bout noon after ma mac hotcake breakfastt. meteor garden was showin at dat tymm u see. mummy was at home. sherwin n aunt came over den. sherwin iss so cutee man. lurve him loads loads loadss. he was damn friendly ta mi 2dae. stickin ta mi da whole dayy can. kids re sooo adorable. sherwin is soo lovable. hahahahs. -muackss** urmm.. went bukit merah wif them under da demand of sherwin n mummy. he wanted mi ta go or else he dun wana leave mann. hahahahhas. so cutee. wenta eat dim sum wif them den do sum buyings at ntuc. took cab ta grandma's house after dat. napped dere. da weather made mi soo irascible dis afternoon but da short-sleep made mi felt far better. ate ma dinner den camee back home ta work on blog stuffs. hahas. was lyk sitting in front of da com frm 7pm til now. its been hours. actualli catchin a movie wif aunt wan. but da movies dun seem interestin ta mi. booo!!~ too bad fer mi. sum other day perhaps. k. i'm stinkin now. gonna take ma shower now.

urmm. i'm rather satisfied dat ive passed ma english ca. its lyk soo easyy ta bargain fer marks now but as fer o levels, i would havee absolutely nothin more ta do if i did badly mann. adding salt ta wounds, i screwd up ma orals can. i aint confident of it. shytt it. k. i'm havin ma physics test 2moro. dead fer sure. didnt study. juz got up from ma snooze, juz had ma light dinner. ma appetite iss weird nowadays can. i wil b lyk so hungry at one moment but full at another. its lyk wada hell. air filled ma stomach mann. frm various comments n ratings frm media n ppl arnd, ive developed an interest on movies so suddenly. ive got da urge ta watch da meow² gurl man n cinderella story. oh mann. hahas. yippeee. i'm goin fer ma sammi concert next week. ma dearest aunt treat mi k. she so niceyy. urmm. realised frm 2dae's pe lesson dat ive bcame veri inactive alreadyy. ma games of captains ball were lyk soo slackk can. i am lazy ta move n too clumsy fer da ball. missed it al da tyms. kcuff. i'm gainin weight can. fatty, fugly, bitchy mi. hahas. crappin again. i'm soo tired againn. dis afternoon's weather was bestt fer nappin but i didnt napp u see. i was down at jo's house. she cooked fer mi can. soo sweet uh. fried rice n chicken soupp plus cakes frm angie da choice. da mint wan was quitee nicey. hahas. k ppl, give mi luck. i'm havin ma physics 2nd test 2moro. n i'm glad dat i didnt take literature. hahas. can sleep a lil while more. i simply lurve ta sleep can. hahahhahahas.

juz reached home not long ago. went ta eat swensen again with moi class guys n rainee. danny is soo lamee k. da accounts test is over. my 4 marks gone mann, didnt do that qn can. shyt mi. urm i've done another mission. its fer a week later wan n i guess u toot wil not understand. hahas. never mind. drop that. no homework todae, gotta find sumthing n do later. singapore idols 2dae k. 90 minutes. its lyk 7pm alreadi. had spend ma tym friendstering juz now. tym consuming man. hahas. n moi leggs were bitten by da s2pid mosquitoes. i curse da irksome pest i consider, ta die of poison from ma blood. rest in peace k. i sound so mean but they should die man. mosquitoes lurvee moi blood, duno why. juz so cruel ta mi. ive got lyk 3 n more bites alreadyy can. kcuf them. wadeverr. 2moro's fridayy, pe day. hopefully it'll b another day of floorball n captains' ball. volleyball isnt a bad idea too. lets hope k. saturday physics test on da chapters i hated da mostt man. electricity, it suck. every mini parts of it. shyt itt man. i haben start ma revision. hafta motivate maself mann. ahhahahas. my leg is soo itchy can. n i haben bath yet. hahahahahas. i'm going ta enjoyy ma warm shower noww man. gonna write til here den. its so near ta prelims. -huggies**

i guess ppl around mi know that i'm sufferin from a heavyy n terrible depression. hahas. moi face.. da s2pid n ugly spots all appeared with alacrity. it reali suck. i'm off coloured completely mann. its so vexing n irksome. -grrr** moi work, damnn its getting worse. its an annihilation. didnt blog in da previous days coz i was busy preparin fer moi major oral exam n urm, changin moi blog into another style u see. do drop mi sum comments in da tagboard k. hahas. i'm pretty sure i've flunk moi oral examinations inside out, upside down. shitty man. i was lyk da cat on hot bricks can. its sum how impossible to allay moi fears fer da orals thou i thought i could. i began stammerin da words wen i saw da examiners n its lyk wad da hell..!!~ damnn. wadever. its over. its useless ta cry over spilt milk u see. hafta move on sumhow n work harder on da other components. i reali hafta put in extra efforts alraedy. tym is running out yet i haf no plans afoot fer my revisions. dead fer sure. juz went ta consult a doctor on my face alreadi. hopefully da s2pid "spots" will b gone mann. n its confirmed that they re neither pimples nor acnes. hahahahas. its sum wad lyk rashes. urm, i felt better. n urm jo's blog donee by mi. i felt rather proud of myself mann. its ma first tym k. its satisfying enough fer mi. hahahahhahas. -grins* i've read thru teens magazine n haf realised that i've suffered from all da symptoms of stress. ppl i'm stressed k. n that explains moi irascible fer dis long period of tym n moi voracious appetite. -wheEe* had swensens fer lunch 2dae. da calamari damnn nicey n topless 5 is damnn cheap. hahahas. go eat now while da offer is stil on. hahahas. dun miss da boat k. hahas. til here, i'm loggin off. i'm feelin lethargic n sleepy now. my eye lids re too heavy fer moi eyes ta stay open. nytes ppl. *muackss*

its so infuriating can. i did blogg in dis afternoon but moi s2pid computer got hang wen i came across a pop up webbie. kcus it k. wadever. i 4got al da hell tingies ive mentioned dis afternoon. only remembering dat i screwed up both moi ca can. i dun understand da kcuf qn of social studies qn 1 n da part 2 i sound out of qn. kcus it. shytt. e maths paper was anotherr big piece of shyt. i cant finish it n da qns re damn challengin. i am weak dats al. most ominously, i would get a _zero fer moi ss mann. i was left alonee dis afternoon by sum moronic bitch uh. luckily moi cindy dearie accompanied mi ta buy moi breakfast cum lunch uh. hahas. i bought famous amos cookies. yummiliciouss can. oh moi god. sweet lil sack of mouth-drooling pieces. juz soo tempting n moi weight is getting soo irritating u see. hahas. dats' women. they do bother about their weight, care bout their imagee u see. hahas. its another step forward ta moi turn fer o levels english oral. hopefully i wun panic again, haf ta learn ta allay da fear mann. i will lyk bcum a cat on hot bricks can. wadeverr. juz came back frm moi aunt's house. was soo tired now. didnt touch ani books at all. shytt mi. wasted a s2pid day. its da suckiest day of da week mann. i'm feelin da stress. its saturday, simple life dayy eh. hahas. paris hilton is moi idol man. cant i juz b lyk herr. i wan her luxurious life. hahahahahahas. i shal stop dreaming den.

boOoOo!~ its friday da thirteenth. it sounds soo eerie n cool but its none of concern coz i'll b stucked at home studyin fer 2moro's social studies n e maths test. da sustainin development topic juz suckk ta core can. i cant goo out. hafta work hard since i didnt achieve a1 fer chinese. i hated maself fer doin so. kcuf mi mann!! well, didnt touch e maths, juz concentratedd on da s2pid ss. mummy's out ta get mi dinner. awww!!~ how sweet ritee. juz came back frm da tuiitionn. ms ho is realli niceey. yuppie. we'll work 2gether ta achieve a higher gradee. ive gotta pull moi sockss reali uppp. i'm stoppin here. gotta get maself goin. ta da ppl havin tests, al da bestt mann..! *cheerrioos*

got back moi o levels mother tongue results 2daee. got a distinction 2. i wasnt satisfied, it wasnt up 2 moi target at all but it was higher than wad ive expectedd. shyt mi. didnt gett a1. wadever. havin social studies n e maths ca dis cumin saturday. its reali death fer mi. i'm lykk soo stressed up yet soo slack can. shytt mi again. bad tymm managementt u see. its a bigg enormous damnn. KYP wass so emotional ytd wen moi darlin crystal asked him ta help donate da s2pidd dummy outram challenge card. hahas. he was lyk goin "ive donated $50 alreadyy u knw, u re juz lazy isnt it.." n it went on n on as da whole klas took him as a FOOL. hahas. pityy him pwettie much man. oohh. it is gettin nearer n nearer ta moi o levels english oral. hopefully i wun repeat da same foolish mistake again. way ta goo man. i'm pushin moiself hard while lettin moiself slack at da samee tym. moi blog is ruinned byy mi oncee again. all thanks ta mi, moiself n i. hahahahhas. tym is tight. spent roughly bout 3 hours on dis squarish machine alreadi. gonna go off now. i wanaa studyy u see. (= take caree ppl n fer those havin oral exams, best of luckk ta u guyss. *lurvess*

k. i'm finally freed frm moi laziness. i'm tired, both physically n mentally. wad am i to do. how mani pillows re needed ta let mi finish moi cryings once n fer all. its hard. damn!! wadever. drop that. its tuesday already, so fast n daa shooort holidays re gonee. tym is juz passin soo damn fastt can. shyt it. well didnt blog fer lyk duno how mani dayss alreadi. saturday 07082004, accompanied mummy ta eat at chinatown den met up wif jasminee ta go out. town of course. ppl queen alreadi k, hahas. ant shld b back alreadi by now, if i aint wrong. hahahahahahas. i'm da princessss. sunday 08082004, i was down at esplanadee area wif moi klasmatess, mainly da guyss n rainee. it was extremely fun k. da fireworks were fabulous. indescribable by words man. simply no words ta describe. its far too much better than fabulous. i wana view it oncee more. ohh goshh i'm goin crazii again. went ta eat at newton n took cabbie home wif eric, aarron n zhiyong. i didnt pay. hahahahahas. i was pissed alritee. not by em obviously. wadever. i duno. mondayy, 09082004, national day k. happiee 39th bdae SINGAPORE!!~ went ta bukit batok temple ta pray. hahas. den near evening went ta great world city wif mummy. she was hungryy n we ate at da food courtt. hahas. yummiee yum yumm. da noodle was niceyy, wif loads of vinegar n mushroom. besttt man. i'm hungry again. wadever. k, reach home at bout 6.30pm. was slackinn. wasnt reali into da tv but rather, facing da com, spendin non-quality tymm. i felt soo dumb. let da tymm slipped thru again. kcuf. finee. jo came ta moi house. i slept wif moi pillow weett. nicee one. i amm soo numb now. i cant study, cant concentrate. i lsot moi interest in stuffs. so boredd now. tired. shytt moiself. n urmm, i'm gonna get moi surf up cardd soon. i wannn!!~ nevil they all ask mi ta go eat marchee later, i'm stil considering. ahhahahhass.
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well. its a short day in sku man. national day celebration, da whole event looked soo magnificently suck. its god damn bored can. was tinkin of wad bagg ta bring previous nite n finally came up wif da thought ta bring a plastic bag instead. no small bag n dis reflected ta mi dat its tym i get a smaller bagg fer event. money again. its flying far away frm mi man. moi money doesnt stay long wif mi. i'm feelin soo accomplished n fat. juz had marche wif jo n gang. i tried da tempura fish n it was gnikcuf big can. its lyk i cant finish n i juz felt lyk pukin at da end of it. gnikcuf full. hahas. i spent god damn loadss of hard earned cash 2dae. after sku went ta movie wif moi klas' gorgeouss bitches. ate moi lunch n went hm fer moi napp. village isnt dat nice ta mi, but it isnt dat bad also. bt i wun rate it 4/5 stars definitelyy. organ klas at 7pm. i was late as usual. juz went dere, played a piece den went off. ma teacher so slack can. wadever. jo worked. distributing flyers. it was tedious n i knew n confirmed she couldnt take it. i was perfectly rite. hahas. i'm thirstyy now, need a drink now, den wash up n go to bed. i am too tiredd ta study now. dun blame mi. hahas. blame it on moi mind that is in a state of illusionnss. ive made sum changes in moi blog. yipppeeeee...!!!
**marche.is.niceyy..!!~__*** je'taimee`` #18

juz came back frm moi breakfast n lunch. hahas. was down at tiong bahru market wif crystal, her bf n valen. n da s2pid drink vendor lyk keep starin at us. i wana dig out his eyeballs. damn rudee. we sat in front of his stall but purposely go get drinks frm da other stalls. hahahas. it was damn funnie, n his face was lyk. hahas. imagine it. tym is passin fast. its runnin out. thought i would b alone fer moi meal juz now, was fortunate that dis sweeties acc mi. touched. da volleyball match wass soo damn cool. both teams played fcukin well can. its lyk ohh moi god. loads of envy n admires fer em. i cant play it fer nuts. but i wana play. wadever. i wan an independent life. a life without [.yOu.]. n [.yOu.] certainly deserves better. you've got evrytingy. i've got none. i felt soo hopeless in dis meaningless life of mine. juz forcin moiself ta swallow down evrytingy n watch tym pass swiftly. dats wad i could doo. jay's new album wasnt dat ideal fer mi. didnt reali find any nicey songs of moi stylee. 4get it. shal end here.

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dis is a sickening day. moi daes haf gone soo meaningless wif quarrels n tears filling each passing day. da start of august wasnt as weelll as i thought it would b. its gonna b another sucky month i guess. n know wad, o levels english oral is in dis month. i'm gonna live hell now. shhytt. i hafta start practisin n make sure i wun repeat da same mistake again. it wil b terrible. 2nd days of arguments, i haven felt any better. moi heart hurts evry lil tym, dun tink dat u'll ever noe, u'll ever bother. am i da one being too ridiculous..? i duno, i dun care coz dats wad made up mi n i'm pwettie sure it didnt happen last tym. it wasnt al due ta moi ridiculousityy can. it was partly her fault also. i'm not tryin ta push da blame. bt fer now, i wan ta get over it n live moi life on moi own. no more reliance on yaa. i hate itt, ta da evry bits, ta da core. yaa gave mi empty happiness. i'm infuriated, as welll as disappointed wif yaa. tym is soon, bringin mi ta a world without yaa. n i guess i will probably live better..? i dunoo. leavee mi alonee. isolate mi pls. i'm deeply hurt. i nv felt da pain b4. it suck, moi evry heart beat suck. o levels drawin soo near. i'm dyingg.