dis is a sickening day. moi daes haf gone soo meaningless wif quarrels n tears filling each passing day. da start of august wasnt as weelll as i thought it would b. its gonna b another sucky month i guess. n know wad, o levels english oral is in dis month. i'm gonna live hell now. shhytt. i hafta start practisin n make sure i wun repeat da same mistake again. it wil b terrible. 2nd days of arguments, i haven felt any better. moi heart hurts evry lil tym, dun tink dat u'll ever noe, u'll ever bother. am i da one being too ridiculous..? i duno, i dun care coz dats wad made up mi n i'm pwettie sure it didnt happen last tym. it wasnt al due ta moi ridiculousityy can. it was partly her fault also. i'm not tryin ta push da blame. bt fer now, i wan ta get over it n live moi life on moi own. no more reliance on yaa. i hate itt, ta da evry bits, ta da core. yaa gave mi empty happiness. i'm infuriated, as welll as disappointed wif yaa. tym is soon, bringin mi ta a world without yaa. n i guess i will probably live better..? i dunoo. leavee mi alonee. isolate mi pls. i'm deeply hurt. i nv felt da pain b4. it suck, moi evry heart beat suck. o levels drawin soo near. i'm dyingg.