school still as borin as usual. no difference. raine was absent again. stayed back fer da accounts so-called test until late afternoon, den went fer lunch b4 we wasted plenty of tym deciding where to head to. i let my tym frittled away at da void deck. shyt. hahas. aniwae, my life is near hell. dis month is definitely not goin my way. i hate october, esp todae. was kinda made emo by some stuffs. dun wish to mention. im beginnin to encounter sum broken images n things lyk dat. hatred filled mi so suddenly. tattered n torn. caught in bewildment. i hate my current life, wif all those farked-up stuffs n da unwanted pressure u gave mi. i juz wana do things my way n live my very own life. dun need yaa to tell mi wad to do, i'm aware of all da stuffs im doin. juz gonna tolerate til ive fulfilled all my responsibility as a child. yur words torn da entire mi apart in case u aint aware. now ive got pieces of mi, wif a part of mi weeping silently as yur words haunt mi profusely in my mind, stabbing mi strongly n cruelly from all directions. i juz gonna say i really hate u. u re mean, so soo mean to mi.