yippie~ boohoo!!
im back for some updates.
been busy busy busy lately.
so many parties.
so many is too exaggerated.
2 parties only. hahas.
but it was fun fun fun.


but but, im soo upset now.
over so many many things.
signs of depressions strucked me. -cries*



i so miss my long long hair.
i so so very extremely hate this long holidays.
cuz ive grown ff (fcukin fat) n fu (fcukin ugly).
my complexion changed.
my face colour turned so yellowish n yucky.
fcuk fcuk fcuk.



my mood is damn freakin bad.
or rather ive got no mood.
-arghs* no more whinings n grumblings.




well well..
we shall start from.. 26 jan 2005.
met darling.
went citylink to change pants for my brother.
then off we went to chinswee rd for lunch.
cuz i suddenly missed da fish bee hoon.
and it was kind of dar to acc me there.
-smiles smiles* he's nice nice. (:
towned after that.
yups. dropped by at bits n pieces n saw daniel there by chance.
decided to say hi to him. yeaps. im nice alrite. -wahahas*
roxy no new stocks. so sad.
saw stella huang.
she looks better in tv. yeah.
and lastly, my throat is bad. -sighs*
accomplished. -wide grin* =)



27 jan 2005..
he came to my house at early noon.
and we rot here til night he went safra.
for an hour of GAME.
went to bm to get food n back home.
my throat is getting worse. tormenting.
done.



28 jan 2005..
filial daughter today.
accompanied mummy to tiong bahru market once i got up from bed.
which was noon by then. cant help. -heehee*
my throat super duper extremely bad.
voice affected. ive got fcuking awful voice.
cant scream. cant shout. cant sing.
mood affected.
went home after that then out again.
met darling then over to meet jasmine n gang at jurong entertainment.
they were ice-skating. weihao's celebrating his bdae.
ktv treat by da birthday boy later that night.
i sang 2 songs, n both sounds bad. cuckoo voice.
sucks lah. just so hate my voice. it was so bad.
reached home at around 2 plus.
done.



29 jan 2005..
it was both cheeheng n weihao's bdae.
cheeheng held party at his house that evening.
attended with darling.
he came to pick me up at my house.
n i was so absent-minded.
i forgot about ivan's disc n luckily dar read thru my msg n saw that.
rushed back to get it n then took a cab down.
i was so freakin hungry by then.
it was my first meal n i pig out. hahas.
i ate hell loads of food that day.
n i am having weight-gain guilt again.
hmmm.. stayed there til da early wee hours n was demanded to get my ass back home.
daddy is nagging bout my late nights. he's mad lah.
only 2 days n he's using da word frequent. hahahhas.
alrite.. done.



as for 30 jan 2005..
organ class as usual.
then went to times bookstore n stoned there.
hahas. had a hard time deciding whether to purchase 'confessions of a heiress'.
so as advised, i sat down n flipped thru n finally ive decided not.
hahahs. cuz its lyk so lil words n paris's pics all over. its so not worth for a book.
so.. hahas. hardy boys have their book too. cool.
didnt buy it also. cuz inside contains all lame stuffs.
nothing much to learn from it. so.. hahahas.
spent an hour or so stoning inside da bookstore.
briefly flipped thru n off i go.
bought a marche cheesy hotdog n back home.
dinner with jasmine, weihao n gang later at night.
went to ah bok's house n home again.
n im feeling so shag.
i hate my complexion.
its getting worse...



i still thinking whether to go sentosa in da morning.
n btw people, ive got a job.
aiyah same one, at raffles city.
they want me back!! hahahas.
as a part-time full-timer for some months.
this tym around at lifebaby.
starting work on 1st feb.
my working life is coming back..
i can feel money rolling into my account.
-wahahahahhahahahs*
da money isnt really much anyway.
n n n i hate da 20% cpf cut-off.




im gone for now.
calling my baby after this.

tata.. (:

im freaking pissed now!!


fuming red, madly exasperated, infuriated and displeased with everything.




I SO SO HATE HATE HATE YOU!!


ALWAYS ALWAYS SO UNFAIR TO ME.




now its so messy.


cant even go out, not anywhere.


u're not here with me also.


nobody's accompanying me.

which makes me hate u even much much more!!

im sick of chinatown now.

its so bored.

my life is in a mess.



forever so unfair!!

cant i have you for myself for da whole day?

promised to go out today after ive recovered from my illness.

all craps.



im so so pissed.

dun even know wad exactly im angry with.

think im pms-ing!!

n im sure its a bad wan.



i hate today!!

went out with mummy in da afternoon.

to chinatown again.

and then its always 5pm back home cuz she wana catch her show.



just when i giggled over meeting u later,

u got da fucking time all delayed.

which makes everything seem so meaningless.

n its definitely pointless to go out at that hour.

sooo.. it PISSES me more.

n this makes me hate u more baby.




i'll rather i go back to schooling.

at least its much much more fun.

im gonna get a job soon.

at least i can earn some bucks for my sprees.



i aint gonna let my time go to waste.

oh mine oh mine. im down with sickness!!

all types of virus attacked me after da chalet..

so not not fun.

my throat is killing alrite? *cries*

pain pain pain. head also.

fever, sore throat, flu n shit stuffs. fuck.



am gonna consult doc 2moro.


its fated, i have to. cant escape. LOL.


anyway, was away for da past 3 days.

down at pasir ris chalet, but its those ulu ulu wan.

its somehow lyk an one-room flat.

utensils n tv, table, sofa, bed all have.


but its really ulu ulu. my first tym. hahahas.

but i kinda enjoyed myself with all da accompany of my chums.



tym swept pass so swiftly.

3 days over n im back home ill.



anyway, 19th january 2005.

went out with mummy n jasmine.


caught up a little bit.

some shoppings accomplished.


and and and not forgetting i got a new roxy jacket.

eeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeha. (:


got my heels also. *grins*




shopping with mummy is always da best. LOL.


i forgot to mention about da show ive watched.

"my brother" is really nice. touching storyline.

people go catch it alrite? i recommend. hahahas.



nothing much to talk bout da chalet thing.


met rebecca. hahas. so slenderly slim n tall.



not bad not bad. preeetty pretty.


spent my 3 days with my darling beside me 24/3.


u know how shiok it was. hahahas.


i so wish it never end.

i soooo wanna be with him forever.

i lurve my darling.




and and and i missss him now. (:



sick patients should rest early. gooooodnight. LOL.

its been so tv nowadays...
just finish watching jay's the one concert dvd moments ago.
wasnt as pleased as his 'incomparable 2004' but was still so diao. woohoo.
still lurve him loads. hahahas. im mrs chou wad. LOL. if only ok...
i so wana watch his incomparable vcd, which duno why da hack took so bloody hell long to release.
my heart is so tickling n its so uncomfortably itchy u see. i missss my jay chou!!
2 more years for his 3rd concert to come. eagerly waiting, as always.
my wish.. to meet him backstage, take a picture with him n hug him. hmm, not over-demanding alrite. thats more than enough for me. hahahhas.
accompanied mummy all da way yesterday. we were at chinatown.
i just dun understand why my silly mummy lurves chinatown. yaa, discovered a 'marche-look-alike' restaurant called 'village'. its another marketplace, located at chinasquare. shall dropby there for a meal someday arh? hahahahs. da food looks yummmy yum yum. ooooh-lala.
darling was at my house yesterday night. somewhat counted as stayed over at my place. somewhat only.
cus he left at around 5am for work. hahas. i prepared breakfast for him alrite? please be touched my dear!! appreciate it horr! LOL.
alrite, my stomach is badly yearning for food food food. gonna go bath n out for scumptious meal.
its our 2nd monthiversary alrite.. (: byeeee..

just finish watching 'titanic' moments ago.
well, da show was awesome, still touched my heart after watching like several times n having my eyes welled with pools again n again. gonnna watch 'the day after tomorrow' soon. wahahahhahas.
all these movies reflects how vulnerable life can be, everything is unexpected n we should always be prepared. cherish everyday n everyone around us for you'll never know what will happen. you can see da people enjoying at one moment, n right after that they're panicking for their lives. i believe titanic once existed, long ago in 1912 according to that show, and she took with her millions of lives as she sank to da bottom of da deep freezing sea. but actually it was a lesson to be learnt also, to those captains of da ships, be sure to have enough life boats no matter how much space they would occupy. this is god damn important alrite? hahahas.
da dead bodies just reminds me of tsunami somehow, with so many precious lives taken away, how heartbreaking.
i simply hope da death toll could stop increasing. da world's like coming to an end with da human population decreasing every now and then. may da almighty god bless all da people.
alrite, back to me. im an obedient girl for today n today only. hahas.
was at home da whole afternoon. but also not counted also. i woke up at 3 plus. LOL.
was making this forever-so-sickening blog stuffs. n im still struggling whether to use back da old skin or this.
people, leave me some comments at my tagboard alrite?
anyway, my darling should be awake now but he hasnt msg me. im gonna give him a call now.
gonna go into my sweet slumber sooon. its 4.45am. goodnight n by da tym i wake up it'll be noon again. hahhas. *(=

im updating again. just went to blogskins.com, saw a number of great stuffs. fabulous. gonna combine together to make one that i really like. its so late now, im damn lazy to do. u know it'll take mi ages to complete it n i'll be hooked. today isnt great. my mood was bad. mood-swinging every now n then. i duno wad happened but just so irritated with everything i see. i vent my anger of course. im sorry to da person. flare up lyk nobody's business. dun care. anyway, i tend to think alot after all these. and once again, i so wanna find a sweet true love that will last me long, with me loving him n him loving me more. hahas. im a demanding soul which not everyone could stand, i mean my temper, my moodswing, da way i spend money, da way i react to stuffs, da way i treat you, da way i make u feel and da way i stand, sleep, eat, play, talk, shout, bite, beat, jump, cry, laugh, smile and lalalala. i duno if this lurve im in will last me long, will be da right one im searching for. i hope so, i could only hope thou da path seems so dim to me. i duno why. i could lurve u truly, madly and deeply sometimes but i duno why i could suddenly feel so pathetic in this relationship at times. i duno but sometimes da way u treat me just somehow transmit to me that im so unimportant to you. i just duno. i hope u feel da way i feel, thou i dun really know how i feel. i do lurve you, but sometimes i really hate you. u just make my mind spin n spin for rounds n rounds n rounds. do u ever feel lonely sometimes in your life, like everyone beside you is so busy n packed with stuffs n many many things to do and u have totally nobody to talk to? i mean u just duno a way to confront someone n just let all da words flow out of your bloody mind, your thoughts, your feelings n everything u're unhappy with? im felt it moments ago, i duno whether u ppl have encountered this situation before but my life, at some moments i do feel lyk that. thou i know there're ppl out there i could easily confront. i duno, just duno n dun wish to know anything now. hmmm, so frustrated just now over so many many things. even tiny tiny things. *argh* just so fed-up. i so wanted to go sentosa to get myself a nice nice tan badly. but nobody seems to be interested in that. so sad. anyway people, anyone everyone all, free just give mi a call n we shall chill out together. haahhahas. i miss all my friends i used to hang out with, all my sweeties n darlings. i just misss so many so many people. sadly, all having so hectic life. i wana go back school. my only solution, get a job quick. hais hais hais.

well well. its been kinda long since i blogged. beeen so lazy to do so thou im not working anymore. slacking since 010105. had sufficient sleep but i'll suffer from insomnia til 6am n wake up from my slumbers in da late afternoons. hahahhas. school is on. kinda miss my school days but not KYP. lol. studying is much more fun than working. yaa, adult life suck n i so wana remain a teenager forever can!! just had my instant noodles with scramble egg. tastes awesome. *yummmmy* n darling, i promise i will cook for u next tym when u come & u'll have to finish everything, every single thing. hahhahahahs. just packed da boxes in my room, stilll so many books. didnt clear them, not until i get my results, in case i might need them again. LOL. who knows wad fate may bring mi to. hahahahas. still waiting for my pay and im planning to get another job, with higher pay. there're plenty of vacancies outside but im no rush for one. stil having sufficient cash in my pocket with my not-so-high expenditure. hahas. saw that roxy watch i eyed for, wasnt as nice as da pic. in fact it looks so different so not worth da price. *whines* n so, i decided not to get it n save my bucks for other stuffs. chinese new year's coming u see, n im so excited cuz new clothess n accessories. i so wish we can move house quick, dis house is toooo old. ive got so many things i wanna do!! move house, buy clothes, re-design my rooom, find a new skin for my blog, find a job, shopppings n lalalalla.. so mannnny!! *arghh* da year 2005, i have a long list of wishes to be fulfilled. shall name them out one fine day. LOL. n baby boy, im uttterly sorry for everything last nyte. ive found u more cherish-able now n my lurve for u, it will never change. a lifetym of lurve, its waiting for us. lurve is a magical spell that could either bring us to heaven or hell. im in heaven now n i wish i will never reach hell. darling, thou u know i do, i still wana say, i love you. *mwacks*

• a year of hectic schedules
• a series of hard muggings
• da big fat 'O's season
• da loads n loads of revisions n remedials
• da year i graduated from oss ( hahahahas! )
• a year of foolish sins ive done
• a year ive neglected loads of my darlings! *sorrry*
• a year of silly wars created.
• a year of havoc ( silly behead stuffs n tsunami .. )]
• a year i would not say its great, but im satisfied n glad that im still living for another year.
  
  yeaps. reflected but my mind isnt functioning well enough. i seem to have left so mani mani things out. never mind. shal do it all over again when i return. yups. so, i shal blog til here. gonna bathe n fleeee!