Tuesday, January 11, 2005
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im updating again. just went to blogskins.com, saw a number of great stuffs. fabulous. gonna combine together to make one that i really like. its so late now, im damn lazy to do. u know it'll take mi ages to complete it n i'll be hooked. today isnt great. my mood was bad. mood-swinging every now n then. i duno wad happened but just so irritated with everything i see. i vent my anger of course. im sorry to da person. flare up lyk nobody's business. dun care. anyway, i tend to think alot after all these. and once again, i so wanna find a sweet true love that will last me long, with me loving him n him loving me more. hahas. im a demanding soul which not everyone could stand, i mean my temper, my moodswing, da way i spend money, da way i react to stuffs, da way i treat you, da way i make u feel and da way i stand, sleep, eat, play, talk, shout, bite, beat, jump, cry, laugh, smile and lalalala. i duno if this lurve im in will last me long, will be da right one im searching for. i hope so, i could only hope thou da path seems so dim to me. i duno why. i could lurve u truly, madly and deeply sometimes but i duno why i could suddenly feel so pathetic in this relationship at times. i duno but sometimes da way u treat me just somehow transmit to me that im so unimportant to you. i just duno. i hope u feel da way i feel, thou i dun really know how i feel. i do lurve you, but sometimes i really hate you. u just make my mind spin n spin for rounds n rounds n rounds. do u ever feel lonely sometimes in your life, like everyone beside you is so busy n packed with stuffs n many many things to do and u have totally nobody to talk to? i mean u just duno a way to confront someone n just let all da words flow out of your bloody mind, your thoughts, your feelings n everything u're unhappy with? im felt it moments ago, i duno whether u ppl have encountered this situation before but my life, at some moments i do feel lyk that. thou i know there're ppl out there i could easily confront. i duno, just duno n dun wish to know anything now. hmmm, so frustrated just now over so many many things. even tiny tiny things. *argh* just so fed-up. i so wanted to go sentosa to get myself a nice nice tan badly. but nobody seems to be interested in that. so sad. anyway people, anyone everyone all, free just give mi a call n we shall chill out together. haahhahas. i miss all my friends i used to hang out with, all my sweeties n darlings. i just misss so many so many people. sadly, all having so hectic life. i wana go back school. my only solution, get a job quick. hais hais hais.
made my statement; 4:24:00 AM.